I started a new job back at the beginning of this year. It has severely pushed me out of my comfort zone. I still question what possessed me to accept this job and if it was the best choice I could have made. I know that in order to grow, I have to get uncomfortable. The biggest things I’m dealing with:
-Team members… one in particular is not a technical person. From what I can tell, he shouldn’t have even qualified for this job. I believe he occupies my day for at least 4-6 hours of it. He’s been in this position for 3 years and doesn’t seem to know his job at the level he was hired at.. It’s an ultimate frustration because I can’t just give him an assignment to go and do. I have to literally outline it step by step what I want or need. The biggest problem that I struggle with? The lack of critical thinking. I had to telework today so I could actually get something done without being interrupted about every little thing that he just finished that he wanted me to know he did. Does it make me a terrible person to joke about buying a pack of gold stars that I can pass to him when he does finish a simple tasking? He got upset when I came back from my emergency trip and didn’t tell him thank you for vacuuming the carpet in our office area (NO JOKE).
-I have decision making power? Wait? What? That’s new to me. I’ve never had this kind of power. It’s a little euphoric to be honest. Granted, I’m hesitant to jump right to a decision when I get told that the interdisciplinary team will follow my lead. My organization does have the lead in things, but I want to make sure I can build effective relationships with the other organizations to ensure that we can all be in agreement with a decision I might be making.
I’m really glad this week is over. I ran my first big 2-day meeting. It was exhausting. Both the boy and I are worn down, ragged, and recovering from head colds. The temperature also dipped back to the -30’s. I think I’m going to sleep the weekend away (especially since I have no social obligations this weekend)!